Finding My Way Back

You know when you feel like you can do everything on your own, and you dont need anyone elses help? Well, I have recently gone through that phase, and ugh....its a lie! No one can do things on their own! Its way too hard and things are so much easier when you have God controlling your life. Its not like I totally turned my back on God, but I was surely not living as if He was in control of my life. Ive found this out the hard way. I thought that I could totally trust some of these people, but the thing was, they continuously lied to me and talked about me to others. Ive learned that the people I can trust are those who love me for who I am and not for who I try to be. If I just let God control my life...everything will be okay! Things are so much easier and I dont understand why I do this all the time. I let God in control and things are awesome, then when I decide I want control, things go downhill! Sigh, when will I ever learn...?? Ah, and I am wanting to quit my job so badly, but its going to be hard. I am not sure if my parents are going to allow me to. Its taking away a lot from my life, and the environment isn't something that I need to be around. Please pray for that! I really want things to work out and I want to be able to feel okay about things.