The Decison Has Been Made

Today was once again another visit to the doctors. By this time, we had been hoping that the new medicine was working and that I wouldn't have to go through anymore surgeries or anything. Sadly, the medicine that he put me on didn't have any effect, and we are back to where we started. He gave me two options, both which were hard choices to make. My mom went with me, and I am glad that she did. I hate making decisions, and I knew that she would be able to help me. At first, we just kind of stared at one another. I was really hoping for my mom to say that the one choice sounded better than the other, but she didn't. My main goal in this was to choose the least painful choice. Both, unfortunately, have their own side of pain. Since I had the surgery in December, we decided to try the treatments to see if they would do any better. If, after the first treatment, the side effects are too much for me, we will then go through with the surgery again. I would rather do neither, but that wasn't really an option. Starting next Tuesday, the treatments begin. So, every Tuesday for the next six weeks, I will be getting these treatments. The doctor described what they are going to do, and that in itself is a huge turn off! I am terrified! He told me what the pain is going to feel like, and it doesn't sound the greatest! Sigh, these next six weeks are going to be the longest of the summer!