My Stitchful Day

Today started off to be a horrible day. I got the email at about 1 am telling me that I did not make the volleyball team. It hurt, but I got over it. I thought that I was having a usual day, and everything seemed to be going okay. Then, I was walking to 7th period, and somehow I cut myself on something...not sure what, but my elbow got sliced. At first I thought that it was no big deal, just a little cut all I need is a band-aid. Then a teacher came and saw it. She didn't fall for my whole band aid thing. She took me to the nurse and the nurse had to call my parents to tell them I needed to get stitches. So, I drove with one arm to meet my mom and we went over to the doctors. I ended up with 4 shots to numb the cut, then 5 stitches. Of course, they aren't the dissolveable stitches, but yet the ones that you have to get taken out. I have to keep them in for two weeks! And get this, I thought that I would be able to get out of gym, yeah...totally have to do gym for the rest of the week! So unfair! Sigh...showering is not going to be fun tonight!

Set The World On Fire

This song has been constantly playing lately, and I have come to love it! I think that should be all of our desires. I think that it brings a meaning to serving Christ, and its sort of telling Him what we want to do, and how we want Him to use us! So, that is my goal, to live out what Christ wants us to do for Him!

College Volleyball Not For Me

The first day of try outs for club was today. I figured that it wouldn't be too bad and it was only to prepare me to play for college. I showed up, everyone was at least a foot higher than me. When we were warming up our hitting, everyone was hitting straight down while mine were floating in the air. When the coaches would hit at us, my arms turned fire engine red because of how hard he was hitting them. I felt like I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. It was scary! But the thing was, I wasn't having fun. That was the first thing that showed me that this wasn't really for me. So now when Im looking for a college, I can rule out anything to do with volleyball. If this is what it is going to be like in college, then where is the fun? So anyways...today was/is busy crazy! Church then volleyball then church again then dinner then church again then movies! Ahh and its not even over yet...well best be getting ready for church...

Best Friends Are the Best!

So, I didn't go to school today so that I could sleep in...nothing was going on and didn't miss much. My friend and I always meet in the hall before 6th period to talk, and she stood alone today. I felt so bad for her. Yet, I get a phone call and she tells me to walk outside so I walk out and there she is in her car. I get in and we go to Sheetz and get coffee. Totally random, but thats my best friend. She went to the football game tonight with the band, and I get a text or a phone call everytime someone scored so that I didn't really have to miss it! I love my best friend!

I'm Listening, Lord!

Well, God must have heard me whining last night hehe! This morning while doing my devotions I came across this passage. "Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way; walk in it.'" Isaiah 30:21. Okay, so I am listening for God. Question is, what is He saying. Do we know through the little things that are happening, or do we go off of feelings? I really am amazed how I blurted out that blog last night and then somehow this morning I came upon this verse. Very interesting if you ask me. But anyways, I know that I have to wait and listen for Him. I know that He is watching over me right now listening to everything that I say. He knows how frustrating this is, and how much confusion I am in. I believe that finding that verse has now made me more impatient haha! Now all I want to do is listen carefully and its like I am expecting to hear something soon. What if God's timing isn't within the time frame that I really need to know? Is that His sign that He has much better things for me to be doing than college? I wouldn't be so uptight and frustrated about all of this if it weren't for my parents and teachers constantly asking me everyday whether or not if I have this whole college thing sorted out! Ahhh....God, continue to show me your way!

I'm Too Impatient, Lord!

Arggh..sometimes waiting for God to tell you what He wants you to do is soo hard! I am getting so impatient. I am worried that maybe I am not listening, or maybe God just wants me to learn to be more patient with Him. Either way, I am about to lose my pants! So I thought that I had this whole college thing figured out, but apparently I don't. Huntington doesn't seem to be where God wants me. Its not that its not an option, but so many other options have came up and I am not sure which one God wants me to go to. Of course it is all in His plan and that the final choice will not be mine but His. I was hoping to know by now, and not to be a slacker, but that isn't working out too well. I have like 5 choices now, and that is 4 more than I orginally had. I am worried about going far away from home, but yet I do not want to stay too close. The idea college for distance wise is Geneva, and for some reason I have been leaning more towards that than anything. But it shouldn't be where I feel comfortable, it should be where God wants me even if I am taken out of my comfort zone. Ahhhh God please show me the path that you want me to follow!

Compassion for Others

I learned something really tough tonight. Sometimes, God can put people in your life that you may wonder and ask Him why. A friend of mine is dealing with the loss of a sister, and the family is just not doing well. We spent a great deal of time talking tonight, and I learned so much. I learned that sometimes others don't come looking for advice or asking you what to do, but instead they have so much going on with them that they just need to let it out, and all you really need to do is listen. It was awkward because at times I wondered what I was to say, or whether or not I will saw the right thing. She went to youth group with me, and her want for Christ to take control of her life is so strong, I truly saw that. It sucks when you feel the pain of others. My compassion for her and her family has grown, and my compassion for others has grown. I found that God has given me a heart for others, and for some reason, I did say what she needed to hear. Maybe the compassion for others is what everyone needs to check in their lives, even though they may not want to!