Stressed Beyond Stressed

This week, my stress levels have gone sky rocketing! I was only to work 4 days this week, but ended up getting called in tonight and now I work 5 days in a row. It would be 6 if I hadn't asked off for Saturday. School has been stressful as well. Its like the teachers keep piling things on and I cannot handle all of this. I really think that I am going to go crazy. Tonight I got off of work at 10:15 which isn't too bad. I really hope to get off earlier tomorrow night. I am ready for graduation and its not even the end of the third quarter yet! Since we had so many snow days, our Easter break has come down to only having 2 days off. Thats not much and in March and April, you don't have many other holidays that you can take off for! Right now I am so tired and don't even have half of my homework done. I really wish that I had that first period study hall now because I really need it. It ticks me off that I didn't get it and the reason for it was basically a dumb one. She told me I needed to switch my humanities class because the one I was in was too full. We now have more in the class I am in now than the one that I was in! Doesn't make sense. Well, I am off to bed!

Let It Snow!

Yay, its snowing again! I love the snow, but will hate it when Easter Vacation is only two days off! Its Wednesday already, which is great! Only two more days to go after this and I am set! The weekend will be busy again with work and school work. School has been going really well lately. I have been actually doing my work on time and getting stuff turned in. Right now I am so tired though. I went to bed earlier last night, but I struggled to get up this morning. All I want to do is sleep! Its my only night off of work besides Sunday night. The past two nights though I have been getting off of work at like 7:30 so that is nice! This whole college decision is getting rough. I have sort of made a decision on Huntington, but everytime I make my final decision, I feel uneasy about it. I feel better when I am debating between the two. That is weird because you think I would at least have a peace. I have that peace but then it goes away. I really want God to just tell me...I feel horrible getting impatient with Him, and I know that He is in control, but it is rough!

School Tomorrow

I actually have to go to school tomorrow, I feel like I haven't been there forever! I don't even know if I will be there in the morning because of having to go to the middle school for some latin thing. I am worried that I will have to go and I have to give my speech in humanities tomorrow probably. I think I am prepared for this speech, but I am sort of worried that my power point wont work. I am going to test it in her room during homeroom if I can. I work 5 days this week too...well 4 more now. I am actually going to have to do something this week and I dont want to haha! I still haven't made a final decison on this whole college thing, but I am starting to lean towards Huntington because they have my major. I guess that that would be a big thing huh? I actually did all of my work today, so school wont be so horrible tomorrow! I am worried about stats class though...that is one class that I wish I would not have taken!

My Trip To Geneva

So this weekend a friend and I went to visit Geneva in hopes of me finally being able to decide on which college I want to go to. This is bad, but I still can't choose. I absolutely loved Geneva. The campus was beautiful and everyone was so nice. I also love Huntington, and everyone there is nice too. I love Geneva for the fact that its far away enough that I wont be driving home every weekend, but its also close enough that I can come home in case of an emergency. Huntington I like that its so far away that I can just have a new start and really don't know anyone there. I will be studying the same thing at both, they just have different titles for my major. I have really been praying about this and have yet to come to a solution. Maybe its neither that God wants me to be at? I hope that that is not the case because I really do like them both. I need to decide kind of soon too because it is getting to be a last minute thing now. I have been working on filling out scholarship forms so at least I am not procrastinating on those! My parents are getting somewhat irritated that I have not made a decision yet either. I think a lot of people are getting irritated that I cannot make a decision. I just don't want to make the wrong one! How can I tell where God wants me to be when I have good vibes about them both. I wish that He would send someone to tell me what to do because I cannot choose. Maybe I will go to both. Nah, I don't think that my parents would be too thrilled with that idea. Ahhh...God, please tell me soon!

No School For Me Today

Last night I really thought that I was going to go to school today. I woke up, and felt like crap. So I just emailed my project to my teacher and went right back to bed. I woke up pretty early, but laid around all day. I forced myself to stay awake until at least two so that I could only nap once today. Tomorrow I wont be able to nap at all so I need to get ready for this. I am struggling to stay awake now, but I don't want to sleep because I want to go to bed at 8 or so. We had an act 80 day so everyone got out 2 hours early. I really didn't miss much so I guess this was a good day to miss! I should have worked on homework more, but I really just wanted to sleep and lay around. I don't really have anything major coming up except for an Ap government essay test on Wednesday and humanities journals due on Thursday. I laid around and read through one of my devotional books today. It was interesting because it talked about how even the smallest addiction can keep us from Him, and that is totally true! Even the littlest things can keep us from Him (such as school or work in my case) and we need to realize when we are letting things get in the way. Just something to think about.

Down But Not Out

This weekend has been filled with me sleeping and not leaving my bed. We try not to go to the drs a lot because it can be expensive, but mom finally made me go yesterday. I am on some antibiotics that haven't really kicked in yet apparently. All I want to do is sleep and then when I am awake, I just lay in bed. This morning was the longest that I was awake and that was from 830 until about maybe 1 pm. I have a speech due tomorrow too! I have it written, I just need to finish my visual aide. I don't feel like doing much either which kind of bites. I was able to get a shower this morning and I was in there for like an hour and maybe 15 minutes. My mom kept checking on me to see if I was okay. I just could not get warm! It seems like everytime I have fallen asleep praying that God would take my fever away. The thing is, the fever broke once and it was painful when it did! I got those chills and acheyness and ahhh! God will work this out in Him time. Maybe this is His way of getting my attention. Now I have more time to spend with Him since I am only capable of laying in bed. He works in wonderous ways!

The Joys of Homework

Yesterday was the longest day of my life. I went to school and then left at 1:30 so I could make it to a meeting in Harrisburg at 3:15. I met up with some people before hand so I didn't have to drive all of that. I barely made it to work by 5:30, so I didn't really get a chance to go home. Thank goodness work wasn't too busy, because I had a massive headache that was bugging the heck out of me. I thought that it would go away by the time that I got home so that I could work on homework, but it didn't so I just went to bed planning on waking up at 4:30 to write my paper and study for my test today. The plan worked out really well besides the fact that I have had to do that twice this week alone. Only one more day of work for this week and I am done. I am excited because I don't work tonight and I get to hang out with my family. I am missing the Valentine's day dance tomorrow so that I can work but thats okay too. I hate the fact that I am up this early but know if I go back to bed, I wont get up in the 10 minutes that I will need to. I still have latin homework to do, but am not awake enough to try and translate a latin paragraph.

Lack of sleep

I started this week off bad. I had to write all seven of my government essays on Monday night so I did not sleep at all. They were so bad. I just wrote whatever I felt like just to take up space on a page. The sad thing is, he will still give me a 100 percent probably. This past weekend I went to Pittsburgh with Kylie and had the time of my life. We got to meet up with an old friend and meet tons of new ones. I was amazed at how well we made friends and how fast. Of course, we barely slept this weekend either so that didn't help much. The drive home was rough because we were so tired. Last night I got some sleep, but still just not enough for me. People keep piling stuff on like they are the only class that I have. I have a speech due on Monday and thank goodness I haven't procrastinated on that one. I have a critique due on Friday that I definetely need to get started soon or else I am going to end up having to stay up all night on Thursday night. Its weird that the night before everything is due, I end up having to work and not getting off until super late. This is life, that just isn't fun right now haha!