Rough Day Back

Today I decided that I was going to go back to school. I thought that I was ready for it, but I most definetely wasn't. I got tired easily and struggled to get through the whole day. I was going to go home after like 4th period but then realized that I had a lot of work to make up in my other classes as well. I had a ton of work to do tonight, mainly studying for tests that I need to make up...soon! I called off work once again, knowing that when I got home from school, I would only want to fall onto my bed and never wake up. Today really got me discouraged, and it really bites. I am very bad with change, so whenever it happens I really freak out. Oh and, guys are pointless at this point. I have decided that I will know who God has planned for me, and I have not found this person yet. Why do I need to go looking when God will bring him to me. That had me discouraged, but then I realized that I am going to college next year and there are going to be so many other guys that I am going to blog about haha! I may have thought before that each guy I met was the one, but I am getting better at this. I can definetely sense it now when the certain guy isn't the one. After a few weeks, I have learned that this last one was nothing but a disaster and kind of a waste of time! Mean, and probably seen as harsh, but most definetely true! Okay if I want to have a better day tomorrow, I just need to end this one and get to sleep!

A Day to Rest, or Not!

I didn't go to school today, mainly because I was still in a great deal of pain and the medicine made me really drowzy. I planned on napping all day, but realized that I had (have) a lot of homework to do. I plan on going to school tomorrow, hopefully! I called off work for tonight. I was going to go, but then realized that I do not have any energy at all. I translated a lot of latin today, and worked on a lot of government things trying to prepare myself for the AP exam. I've been watching about every season and every episode of law and order ever since I got home from the hospital. I got to read a lot today too, and the book that I am reading is called The Case for Christ. I am really getting into it, hearing different stories from a variety of people learning things that I didn't even know. At first I thought that the book was extremely boring, but have gotten more into and it keeps getting better. I wish that I had more time to read because I would be reading these kinds of books like crazy. I am about ready for a nap, but I still have a ton of homework to do. I have a whole other page of latin to translate and about 10 more things to do for government. I figured that I would work on physics in study hall tomorrow morning. I better get back to work!

Another Visit to the ER

This morning when I woke up, I had a horrible pain in my back and my side. I was going to let it go, but then the pain did not go away. I ended up calling my mom and telling her that I thought that I needed her to come home. She came home and said that we needed to go the ER. On our way there, my mom had to pull the car over because I got very sick. The doctor came in and did a CAT scan, blood work, and a urine test. The CAT scan showed that I had a stone leave my kidney and it is just kind of hanging out in my urethra. There really wasn't much that they could do except for giving me pain medicine and medicine for my nausea. The first go of medicine did not work because within 5-10 minutes I was throwing up again. The next go really did work, and I was able to rest for a while. My mom did great. She took care of me because the room was really cold. The doctor really doesn't want me going to school until I pass the stone. I have to pee into a strainer type thing to catch the stone, all the time! I am a bit worried about going so far away to college with all of these kidney stones that the doctor says are inside of my kidneys. I don't think that I could take care of myself and that worries me. I am praying about it. Even though Craig and Rhonda will be there, I think that I need my mom for this. Definetely going to be praying about this!

What A Week!

I managed to make it to school twice this week. Monday and Tuesday, and haven't been there since. I have this dumb rash that started out on my left shin and spread throughout my whole body. Then, my leg decided to swell. I woke up this morning and my hands were swollen to the point where I felt like I was wearing those Mickey Mouse gloves! My mom made me a doctors appointment today and was able to go and try and figure out what is wrong. She did a strep test and that came back negative which is good. She diagnosed it as an allergic reaction for now but if it doesn't go away, she wants to get some blood work just to make sure that it is nothing more. Right now, the swelling is the most annoying thing. I am praying that it goes away soon so that I can feel better! I am hoping that I can go to school on Monday, but do not know for sure yet. My mom keeps giving me benadryl that is making me so sleepy! 13 more days until my birthday which is exciting! I am going to go to bed so that I can maybe get up before noon tomorrow!

A Calm Weekend!

I am so excited that the weekend is here. This past and coming week were/are crazy busy. After this coming week, maybe things will slow down a bit. Last night was my last youth group girls sleepover. It went really well, considering only 5 girls and 5 youth leaders were there. When I came home this morning, I fell asleep for like 4 hours. I actually had time to read some today, which I haven't gotten to do in a long time. I cannot wait for school to be over. I am really getting nervous about leaving for college though. I know where I need to go, but it is scaring me more and more each day. I only had to work 3 days this past week which was really nice. Lately, I have been thinking a lot about my faith. I have been asking myself if what I believe in is really what I believe in. I know, confusing right? I guess I mean that have I become to comfortable with my beliefs that I have never really even thought if I actually believe in them 100 percent. Of course, it isn't to the point where I am not a christian, but I have realized that I have become way too comfortable. There is a lot I need to be doing in order to be growing, which I haven't done for a while. I am very glad that I had a chance to realize this, because I don't really think that I am very happy with where I am at. Well, I have homework that I could be doing!

Paintballing Trip

I don't think that I have ever been so scared before! First off, getting up at 5 am was not a great thing! After that though, everything was great! Craig tried to scare Kris and I the whole ride there, but it didn't work. We went with him the first game, which was a huge mistake! Kris and I then kind of tried to do our own thing, which was try to not get hurt! We did great, and I am very proud of us. We both only got shot maybe twice. The good thing was that we stuck together and whenever one of us got shot, both of us decided to go out. We figured out that this was our last youth group trip together, which made us sad. I have a huge bruise on my arm, and that doesn't feel too good! In the one game, Craig told Kris, Hannah and I to hide in this ditch and he would come in behind us. Yeah, Craig ran because people were coming and left all of us there. We tried to shoot the people, but Kris ended up getting hit and then 5 minutes later, Hannah and I surrendered because we were really scared. It was a good day, and a lot of fun. Right now, I am ready to get to bed. I actually want to get a shower like right now because I feel so disgusting!

The End is in Sight!

Well, school is only 2 more months and I am done! I am so excited about this summer. After graduation, my parents are going to Alaska for a couple of weeks so Jess, Hannah, Serenity and I are going to have the house all to ourselves. I met my roomate for college this past week and she is absolutely amazing. This past marking period, I got straight A's! I am very excited about that! It really helped with convincing my parents that I can be independent. Saturday I am going paintballing with the youth group, and Kris has to go now. I bet her that if I would get 5 other girls to go, then she would have to go. I totally won, and now she has to go. We talked about it, and figured out that it is pretty much our last trip together within the youth group. We have the girl's sleep over, but that really isn't a trip. I found a passage a couple of days ago, that has really helped me. It is Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." It has really helped me to realize that God knew our purpose before He even created us. It is hard to understand, but also comforting knowing that God is in complete control of my life!