Not Quite Over It

Your first love is always the hardest to get over......unfortunately, mine is taking over a year lol. Theres no way to explain it, I miss him. And when I am looking for someone new, they have to be just like him. I totally screwed things up when I ended things between us, and I regret it one hundred percent. How stupid could I be!? There is no one else like him, and I dont think that there ever will be! If there is, he must be perfect....sigh Ive never felt this way about someone before, and its really bothering me. We are great friends, and I think that that is all we will be. My dream will not come true, and if God wants it to work, then he also has to listen to God. So it makes things complicated...when will I get over this?