Why Worry?

I can't believe that I am posting something about this! But okay here it goes. This week has been probably the most stressful of the school year. Its just things with the school and its really bothering me. I believe that the way the office is going about things is totally wrong. Some of it I also believe is against the law according to their contrats but thats okay. Im not really worried about that. But from Wednesday until Friday I worried every single day. I didnt sleep well Wednesday night because I was so worried. Friday morning came and I cried because I didn't want Friday to come. Then, the school didn't even call home. I worried over nothing and Im sure I am probably going to worry Monday and the rest of the week. I extremely hate this. I worried so much Thursday morning that I threw up. The thing is...why worry? I don't get why I do it, or even why others do it. God is in control and already knows what is going to happen. By us worrying, things aren't going to change. I guess I felt in some control while I worried. It made me not be myself the whole week too. It was like I was down and when I tried to be up about things, it wouldn't happen. Sometimes I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. But on Wednesday night at youth group we talked about how we worry and how if we take everything to God in prayer...we don't need to worry. I guess I am going to try this....but I am not sure how well it is going to go.

Another thing is what some have been saying to me. The school thinks that I have some sort of multiple personality disorder. When they told me this, they said that unless I got help now I would never make it in life. They also had the nerve to ask me if I was crazy. All day I felt like I was extremely far away from God. They made me feel like God couldn't help me and that I was sort of hopeless and helpless. I hated that feeling, because for a while I seriously felt that God wasn't even there with me. And I began to feel like if people thought that I was crazy, maybe I really was? Then I talked to some of my close friends, and they told me that it wasn't true and that I was okay...Just one thing...remember that no matter what God is right there beside you...Even if people make you feel hopeless and helpless!