But I Want To Know Now!!

How many times do we find ourselves in the situation where we are wanting to know something at that moment or we want something right then and there? I have found myself in this situation in the past two days. The past two days have been hard for me due to being sick. I have yet another infection. Thursday, I missed some important stuff because I was not feeling well at all. I showed up to class late...thats nothing new however...and made it through the class. The proffessor obviously wanted to know why I was late, and I broke down. Since then, she has been sending me encouraging emails. The one that I received from her today really opened my eyes. The part of it that impacted me the most was "in 2 years or heck, 2 decades, you may find out what God is trying to show you through this. Or, you may find out in heaven who knows." Why do we always think that it should be on our time, when in reality, its all about God. These things that we go through in life...they aren't there because God wants to make our live hell...but because He is going to use it in some way. That sounds so preachy, but its so true. Once you are in a situation, you cannot really see it, but once you are a couple years down the road and looking back...you see how that situation has shaped you and helped you to grow. Thats another thing...is whatever happens to you going to effect you negatively or positively? I've been thinking about this in my own life. Have my life events changed me for the better? Maybe its time for some reflection and growth?