Run, Just As Fast As I Can...

I started reading the book "Redeeming Love" over this Christmas break. Oh, and what an interesting Christmas break this has been. I am not sure if I have ever posted a blog about this before, probably because I never felt led to share. There is a song by Pink called "Just Like a Pill". Part of it goes, "You're just like a pill, instead of making me better, you keep making me ill." Sex. There, I said it. Thats how I apply this song to my life. One thing in my life that I have struggled with the most is sex. I believed the lies that it would strengthen a relationship, that it would take away all my pains, and that it would bring me worth. Sex has always been a part of my life. I hate that fact by the way. I hate that I gave myself away like that. It isn't how God intended it! We all have those things in our lives that are like "pills". We think that they will make us better, but instead, they make us ill. Not all of us struggle with the same thing, we all struggle with something different. Its all so very personal and meaningful for us. But then, there is another part in the song that goes "Where I can run, just as fast I can, to the middle of nowhere, to the middle of my frustrated fears." When we turn to something besides God, we are running. We are running from our fears and our hurts. I know for me, I used sex as an escape. An escape from the pains around me and everything else. So instead of staying with a "pill" that is not making us better, but yet is making us ill, we should run back to our fears and face them. Oh and, I am pretty sure that Pink never even fathomed that someone would apply God to one of her songs. First time for everything?