Teach Me and Guide Me

Wow, lately, a huge struggle for me has been the loss of a friend. Oh, she is still here at Huntington, but we have drifted so far a part that nothing we do can bring us even close to what we were before. You see, last semester, her and I were pretty close. I got close with a few people, but her and I, we were extremely close. We played volleyball together and pretty much did anything and everything together (mostly at 4 am haha). Anyways, this semester, we both have gone different ways. At first, it seemed as if she had gone a different way, and I was standing here alone. Why should I think of it in such a depressing way? I came upon this verse a couple of days ago that was really an answer to what I was asking God. First, let me tell you what I was asking God. I was asking Him to show me what I was supposed to do with this. I wanted to know what He wanted me to get out of this. Psalm 86:11 says this: "Teach me your way, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name." I was so focused on my relationship with my friend and using her as a crutch that I was not listening to what God wanted. I was not giving Him all of my heart. I thought that I was, but I was so far from it. I held my relationships on earth far more higher than my relationship with Him. Psalm 86:11 is a new prayer, one that we should be begging of God. It is a plea for Him to dwell in our lives and become more in His presence.