Surrender

I believe in every post I have made it clear that I have a huge issue with control. I tend to refer to myself as a control freak, but I am beginning to wonder if that is an under statement for me? As I was sitting here messing around online this morning, I noticed that my friend made a really cool video so I decided to watch it. I then noticed that it was 6 minutes long, which if you know me by now, you also know that my attention span barely can last a minute. But, nevertheless, I decided to watch it. It was a neat video to the Revelation Song. She did a fantastic job with the pictures and she even put some scriptute in it which was really neat. Anyways, that is not the point of me talking about the video she made. I was wondering why the video would be so long because the song isn't all that long, at least not 6 minutes long! I continued to watch and as the song finished, it still had about 2 minutes left of video, so of course this left me curious. Although, I expected some altar call and scary "you are going to hell" message from this friend. And because of my last comment, this is why I am leaving her name anonymous in this post. Okay getting sidetracked here, sorry! The last two minutes were filled with silence, a picture of the cross in the background, and the word "surrender" in bright, bold, red font. I stared at this for the entire two minutes. I am not sure if my friend meant to have the effect that she had on me, but if she did, kudos to her for succeeding. One simple word and I am contemplating my life. Sometimes I think that my brain is so scattered that it can make a mountain out of a mole hill! Wow, I used an analogy that someone my grandmother's age would make! Ahh getting distracted again! Anyways, this caused me to pay attention to the lack of surrendering that I do. I don't want to be one of those people who holds things back. I want to surrender everything, even the cake that I am about to dive into after I post this! Surrender...what a simple word can do in my life. Oh, how beautiful it will be.